Unduly Visit to the Past

Firstly, there was an itch, which led me to scratch, hoping the uneasiness would disappear. However, this only caused it to start bleeding.
The wound was on the verge of healing, with the itchiness being the final phase of recovery, but my impatience got the better of me. Annoyed by the sensation, I rubbed it too vigorously, and in my foolishness, I reopened an old wound nearly healed.

I ventured back in time, aiming for a brief return to my childhood to understand my suffering, merely a glance.
My intention wasn't to point fingers at those who caused my pain nor to pass judgment.
Honestly, I believed I had matured enough to accept that everyone plays their part and, in doing so, might unintentionally hurt others.
In this understanding, I thought it necessary not to judge or harbor regrets but to strive to see the good in ourselves and others.

However, I fell into a trap, becoming angry and filled with resentment and hatred towards those who inadvertently caused my misery.
This unnecessary journey into the past was a mistake; my tender and unhealed wounds couldn't withstand the visit.
It requires maturity to recognize our limits and wisdom to refrain from embarking on such journeys, realizing some paths are better aimed toward the future than revisiting the past.

My misguided journey into turmoil brought about much confusion; it disrupted not just my equilibrium but everyone's.

Some wounds, when they itch, indicate they are healing. It's best to ignore this sensation and let them be. If you succumb to the urge to scratch, you risk reopening them, causing them to bleed again, and thus, the cycle of pain restarts.

Let go.

Dana Obeid