Note to Self

I hold a unique perspective on the concept of letting go, and I arrived at this viewpoint recently after trying to comprehend my struggle with holding onto long-standing resentments.

I don't consider myself an evil person; I tend to be forgiving and willing to offer second chances. I often find myself making excuses for people's unkind actions and reactions. However, there are a select few individuals towards whom I've harbored anger for an extended period, and regardless of the circumstances, I find it impossible to release those feelings.

I don't necessarily need to let go; instead, I must move forward and leave these individuals behind. Their actions have been so profoundly hurtful that forgiveness is not viable. They resemble something hopelessly broken at its core—unfixable. Regrettably, they serve as a continual reminder of my anger, making it all the more essential to remove both them and my negative feelings from my life.

By letting go of my emotions and distancing myself from them, I've taken a direct step toward preserving my well-being.

If several years have passed, and it's evident that these individuals have shown little regard for who I am and how I deserve to be treated, then it makes sense for me to consider moving forward.

Shattered and broken objects can be hazardous; the same principle applies to relationships.

While it's certainly sad to lose a once-essential presence in my life when these entities become a source of danger and harm, it's crucial to prioritize my well-being and safety by choosing to move on.

Note to self: do not look back, and do not wait; you should let yourself… go.

Dana Obeid