It was Wrong

Answering your question:

I was ready to move on and prepared to go, but a gentle knock on my bedroom door stopped me. And the scared soft voice behind the door asked me if I was ok; once I heard his voice, I knew I was so wrong, and I wanted to wait; I needed to hug my sons and stay.

The warmth of their hugs and the questioning teary eyes brought me back to life. They saved me.
When life breaks or smashes you down into pieces, there should be reasons to pick your parts together and stand up. I had to hold out and carry on with two beautiful angels and later three. My soul woke up once they hugged me that day, and I decided that I need to live to feel their hugs and see their eyes. They saved me and made me realize that I was happy.

My boys are the vital pieces that have pulled me together. Without them, I would be far gone; without them, I would not be able to reach today to appreciate those who were the real angels in my life. You boys made me feel worthy; you gave me a goal and purpose to live for. Above all, you allowed me to experience and learn; you taught me to stop being ashamed of my mistakes and defaults. You made me know that I am lucky to live, stay, and let go of what has gone and love what remains.

You taught me to love, and I could not be more thankful.

Dana Obeid